Monday, April 19, 2010

a moment

This morning I had a moment.

A moment while running [yes, on the treadmill] my last long run before the marathon [in 12 days].  I wasn't feeling it.  I was fine.  No [running] problems.  Felt stressed [what I DO best].  My mind was racing.  Thinking of what I needed to do as soon as I finished.  And what I really should be doing right now.  Wishing I was running today in Boston.  Just felt blah.  I had 10 more miles to go and my best songs weren't even working?! 

I turned off the music.  Walked my cell phone to my room [I can't be trusted].  Turned off the computer.  Pulled down the blinds on my front door.

And I got back on.  Nothing but the sound of the motor and the huge fan blowing on my backside.  In my terms this was quiet.

More importantly, my brain was quiet.  [This never happens].

Lately, I've been hearing myself say [a lot].  I have to do laundry.  I have to do sprints.  I have to help Peanut with her project.  I have to iron.  I have to prepare a lesson.  I have to run my business.  I have to run.  I have to weight train.  I have to make dinner.  I have to list 20 items today.  I have to clean the bathroom.

blah.  blah.  blah.

For the remaining 80 minutes.  I ran.  I thought.  I pondered. I realized. wait . . I "get".

I get to do these things.  I get to wake up each morning and take care of my family.  I get to live in my beautiful home that needs cleaning.  I get to run, train, etc.  My body & my heart allow me to do all of these things.

amazing.

truly.  amazing.

I am grateful.

Happy Monday!

18 comments:

Sarah said...

This is awesome. Thanks, Emz! I've been having to tell myself over and over to be grateful for what I have.

Gina said...

awesome!

ps. it's nearly impossible for me to run in *silence*.

Stacey said...

Great post! We do GET to do all those things. Thanks for the reminder.

Karine said...

Let me take a "moment" to let you know how much I loved this post. Such wonderful thoughts for a Monday (and every other day, by the way)

Barefoot AngieB said...

Nice moments! I love those and hope you have a fantastic monday!

TMB @ RACING WITH BABES said...

Love this post! It's such a good lesson.

Evolv Rose said...

Thank you - this is always a great reminder of what a gift, well, everything is :)

Will said...

you are obviously an awesome wife and mom. but even w&ms need their stimulation. keep pushing yourself. it gives energy to all.

Marlene said...

beatiful! I will keep thos post in mind next time I find myself thinking of everything I "have to do."

Big Daddy Diesel said...

What a great post!!! Sometimes we just need that "alone and quiet time" to get us over that internal battle.

Laura said...

THANK YOU FOR THIS! I have been struggling a bit of late and am having a lot of stressing going on regarding my first full so this was a big motivator for me.
May even Sharpie this on my hand on race day!

Kelly Leigh said...

I am so guilty of thinking I HAVE to do things and not that I GET to do them. This is such a good reminder to appreciate what I get to do. oh but that ironing thing - I don't think I HAVE to iron will ever change to I GET to iron. Not in this lifetime anyways.

Kera said...

i feel weird that i don't have anything incredibly funny to say. i will just mention that i REALLY enjoyed this post.

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

What Marathon are you doing in 12 days??

Iva said...

fabulous!

Michelle Dylan Lagerfeld said...

Lovely perspective!

Angie said...

love this one-I have 5 days and am freakingout a little but I do the same things, trying to relish it all a little more. Also- have you any speed training tip oh swift footed one? I want to speed up by my fall races.

Petraruns said...

WHat a post. Love it. Thank you.