This morning I had a moment.
A moment while running [yes, on the treadmill] my last long run before the marathon [in 12 days]. I wasn't feeling it. I was fine. No [running] problems. Felt stressed [what I DO best]. My mind was racing. Thinking of what I needed to do as soon as I finished. And what I really should be doing right now. Wishing I was running today in Boston. Just felt blah. I had 10 more miles to go and my best songs weren't even working?!
I turned off the music. Walked my cell phone to my room [I can't be trusted]. Turned off the computer. Pulled down the blinds on my front door.
And I got back on. Nothing but the sound of the motor and the huge fan blowing on my backside. In my terms this was quiet.
More importantly, my brain was quiet. [This never happens].
Lately, I've been hearing myself say [a lot]. I have to do laundry. I have to do sprints. I have to help Peanut with her project. I have to iron. I have to prepare a lesson. I have to run my business. I have to run. I have to weight train. I have to make dinner. I have to list 20 items today. I have to clean the bathroom.
blah. blah. blah.
For the remaining 80 minutes. I ran. I thought. I pondered. I realized. wait . . I "get".
I get to do these things. I get to wake up each morning and take care of my family. I get to live in my beautiful home that needs cleaning. I get to run, train, etc. My body & my heart allow me to do all of these things.
amazing.
truly. amazing.
I am grateful.
Happy Monday!
18 comments:
This is awesome. Thanks, Emz! I've been having to tell myself over and over to be grateful for what I have.
awesome!
ps. it's nearly impossible for me to run in *silence*.
Great post! We do GET to do all those things. Thanks for the reminder.
Let me take a "moment" to let you know how much I loved this post. Such wonderful thoughts for a Monday (and every other day, by the way)
Nice moments! I love those and hope you have a fantastic monday!
Love this post! It's such a good lesson.
Thank you - this is always a great reminder of what a gift, well, everything is :)
you are obviously an awesome wife and mom. but even w&ms need their stimulation. keep pushing yourself. it gives energy to all.
beatiful! I will keep thos post in mind next time I find myself thinking of everything I "have to do."
What a great post!!! Sometimes we just need that "alone and quiet time" to get us over that internal battle.
THANK YOU FOR THIS! I have been struggling a bit of late and am having a lot of stressing going on regarding my first full so this was a big motivator for me.
May even Sharpie this on my hand on race day!
I am so guilty of thinking I HAVE to do things and not that I GET to do them. This is such a good reminder to appreciate what I get to do. oh but that ironing thing - I don't think I HAVE to iron will ever change to I GET to iron. Not in this lifetime anyways.
i feel weird that i don't have anything incredibly funny to say. i will just mention that i REALLY enjoyed this post.
What Marathon are you doing in 12 days??
fabulous!
Lovely perspective!
love this one-I have 5 days and am freakingout a little but I do the same things, trying to relish it all a little more. Also- have you any speed training tip oh swift footed one? I want to speed up by my fall races.
WHat a post. Love it. Thank you.
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