A moment while running [yes, on the treadmill] my last long run before the marathon [in 12 days]. I wasn't feeling it. I was fine. No [running] problems. Felt stressed [what I DO best]. My mind was racing. Thinking of what I needed to do as soon as I finished. And what I really should be doing right now. Wishing I was running today in Boston. Just felt blah. I had 10 more miles to go and my best songs weren't even working?!
I turned off the music. Walked my cell phone to my room [I can't be trusted]. Turned off the computer. Pulled down the blinds on my front door.
More importantly, my brain was quiet. [This never happens].
Lately, I've been hearing myself say [a lot]. I have to do laundry. I have to do sprints. I have to help Peanut with her project. I have to iron. I have to prepare a lesson. I have to run my business. I have to run. I have to weight train. I have to make dinner. I have to list 20 items today. I have to clean the bathroom.
blah. blah. blah.
For the remaining 80 minutes. I ran. I thought. I pondered. I realized. wait . . I "get".
I get to do these things. I get to wake up each morning and take care of my family. I get to live in my beautiful home that needs cleaning. I get to run, train, etc. My body & my heart allow me to do all of these things.
amazing.
truly. amazing.
I am grateful.
Happy Monday!
