Thursday, June 24, 2010

got trials?

{This post . . .I have deleted and started and then started once again. I am not one who enjoys WRITING a less than upbeat post. But [a possible "sorry" to you readers] I need this today. For me.}

got trials?

"Life is the only art that we are required to practice without preparation, and without being allowed the preliminary trials, the failures and botches, that are essential for training." - Lewis Mumford

I have long spoken of my amazement of the human heart.

I am continuously reminded that the driving force of my anatomy is spectacular - both in matter and metaphor. I see the contrast daily when I step on and off my treadmill.

The past few weeks have taught me, it is fragile yet determined. It is simple yet oh so complex.

I know the "book facts" on the heart. I took superfluous [points for anyone who can name the movie that made that word slightly more usable] amounts of anatomy courses.......It is a chamber that pumps red and white blood cells, beating two and a half billion times in an average lifetime . . blah....blah...blah.... but where is the book, the class, pace recommendations, the instruction manual on the metaphorical & emotional function of this organ?

I am grateful for my gift of life - it is magnificent through every small and not so small heartbreak and certainly every triumph and trial.

I am grateful for my strong sense of self, my destination & my goals in life. I firmly believe I do not walk this path alone, and I am thankful for the confidence and comfort that instills even on the toughest of days.

I am grateful for my family and friends - I deeply love each and every one of them, for they make my life experience infinitely richer.

And my daughter . . . . she gets her own shout out. I mean, come on, how can she not rock my world?!


gmontalvo13 said...

she is adorable! great fashion sense!

Angie said...

Consider this a virtual hug. A long, squishy one.

Unknown said...

I like her style :)
Hope you are well.

KC (my 140 point 6 mile journey) said...

Rock on! Because you can!

Kelly Leigh said...

I hope everything is A Okay! and seriously, I wish I was as cool as peanut.

Char said...

Life can be pretty tough some times. No one comes through unscathed but through the tough times we get to hone our character and come out a better person. I hope you're doing okay. I'll be thinking of you.

Sarah said...

Ooh! Ooh! Father of the Bride! Steve Martin flips out and removes the superfluous hot dog buns!


Do I win?

I think I get what you are saying. It is easy to know something logically, but harder to control how you feel about it regardless. Sorry things are hard right now. Prayers that they will get better.

Carrie said...

Father of the Bride, one of my all time fave movies. (I like the sequel too!) Bad days stink, but they always make the good days all the more sweeter! :)

Caratunk Girl said...

Bad days suck. Hoping tomorrow is a better day!! I am going to stand on my head until you smile. :)

Unknown said...

Yep, I've go trails too. I needed this today too, for me. Once again, thanks for baring the soul. I think we had twin-days today.

Aimee said...

Your daughter is so adorable!
I hope you have a better day tomorrow. I too, wish there was a manual for the emotional workings of the heart. It would just make some things so much easier.

Pining for Pinterest said...

I love this post!! Great picture of your daughter :)

Syl said...

love this post!
Your daughter is beautiful
Thanks for stopping by my blog, now you have a new follower ;-)
Have a great weekend!

Big Daddy Diesel said...

Steve Martin AND Captain Jack Sparrow!!!!!

Gina said...

Sweet sweet photo of your girl!